In truth, I have never had a boyfriend. It just didn't happen to me and I'm not shocked by it. I'm a single woman who knows herself and knows what a real relationship looks like. As a 29-year-old female, I have yet to be in a long-term committed relationship. I dated for five weeks in a magical hell. My dating life has been a series of ghostings and leavings by almost every guy I've talked to. I never had a romantic relationship which led to me being called a girlfriend. It's official that I never had a boyfriend in my twenties. I'm starting over with a new chapter in my life and it's not important to date anymore.

There are only three things I have to go on: my belief, my dating history, and my TikTok video experience. By the time I was 28 years old, I was ready to date and have a sexual relationship. I was mentally and physically ready for a boyfriend and to start a relationship. I started a roaster which led to my first date and it was the worst experience of my life. He made me feel like I was not good enough and my self-worth took a major hit. Because of the situation, I am jaded today, and I cannot fall for anyone. My boyfriend's journey will not happen until my life is complete. I want to feel ready to let someone in and it will happen naturally.

Getting into a romantic relationship isn't easy when you have no experience and keep being dropped. Men in today's society are different and the dating app means so many more options. Finding someone in this climate is impossible. I have never met someone who expressed their likeness for me. It's difficult now to be open with someone because it always fizzles out. It leaves me feeling worthless. 

It's beginning to occur to me that everyone doesn't live happily ever after. It doesn't have to be shared with someone. Social media is full of women who are showing their peace and happiness by being single. This is the time in my life where I will get to know myself. My focus will be on my physical well-being and constructing my own Canadian dream. So, I have never had a boyfriend, so what?