As part of my plan to rebrand myself before I turn 30, I'm changing my whole outlook, appearance, and personality. I wanted to shed my 20's and take anything with me. I want another person to live a different life. I'm over a certain situation, it's the first for me to choose someone different.

It's so hard to find a job these days. After 6 months, there have been no results but setbacks. I am so over this heartbreaking and dehumanizing process, but I need a job to support myself, pay my bills, and survive in society. I'm not getting anywhere and it hurts. It is my nature to work hard, to be passionate, and to be resourceful. My motivation is dying in the real world and my goals are changing.

Making lifestyle changes is happening without my consent. I'm shocked that I'm not consuming anything new and am living off nothing. I've been broke this year and it's scary. My lifestyle is working on a laptop, drinking water, watching TV/movies, shopping in my wardrobe, redesigning my bedroom and sewing samples. I only eat what is at home. It's warm outside, and I'm ready to live again. I decide to just live my life without a job, no career just living life.

Redirection is my best friend and I used to be unbothered and unphased. Having the freedom to live my dream life on my own terms is one of my plans for the future, including pursuing my projects, becoming a handbag artisan and funding experiences and lifestyles.