One year ago, I was dumped by text by a boy I'm trying to forget. I wasted so much time on this situation and what is sad is I still cry about it. What happened was more traumatic and now that I am on my own, I am very happy about it. Talking to a boy gives me anxiety. I have a fear of things just flizzling out and I'm not enough to be with them. Despite living in a fantasy bubble, people rarely stay in my life for extended periods of time. I'm not looking another side anymore and it worries me. I'm not giving up but I'm chasing it. As an adult woman, I'm focusing on leveling up.

For the first time in my life, I am on my own. As 29 years old with zero backup plan. Being on your own is scary. I'm not successful people or in adulthood. In my life, there was always something going on, something planned, something upcoming. Right now, there is nothing happening in 2025. My life is stuck at home doing the same thing every day. I'm at a point where I need a job. I have to work now to have a future. I am humble and I have let go of everything in order to move forward. I'm still waiting for my turn. Struggling is not fun anymore and I can't do it anymore.

Using the term: Accepting life for what it is. My life is not going according to my expectations. I always worked hard but nothing working now. I'm struggling to get started. I'm rejecting everything now. Just need to find a way to fund my lifestyle. I have to find a different way not the traditional route. Life will be life.